Summarized: Forgiveness. Acceptance. Determination.
At age 70 there should be identifiable life lessons that guide the remaining days. Not because these lessons make life easier, but because peace and joy comes with understanding.
2013 has been HUGE in my household. Not just because reaching 70 is notable, there was also the 50 year wedding anniversary. These were milestones the public saw. Behind the scenes there is a completely different take on life.
We have four granddaughters. Two daughters-in-law. Two sons. Both families intact. Each family faces challenges; sometimes financial, others are emotional.
It occurred to me recently that I needed to forgive. Forgive others for decisions made. Each of us must face our life as an individual first, then as a family unit. When painful situations drive anger and/or grudges it destroys love. I cannot make decisions for my sons—they must face the future based on their own decisions. My role is to step aside and let them live with their own consequences. Good or bad. I have learned from my decisions, and they will too. I cannot judge their struggle, because that is between them and their Creator.
My love for my children (and grandchildren) fills me. They will never understand my life and how it feels to be 70 until they too are 70. Today is mine. Mine alone. God will take care of my heirs—either I have faith, or I don’t! I am blessed with a life partner. He comes the closest to understanding me. Our faith has sustained us.
Our journey continues. I accept that the journey ends. I am determined to live each day with forgiveness at the center of my soul. It gives me peace.